our memories
the day we met
after texting you for hours and calling daily i genuinely knew you were the one, although you didnt even think we were dating (i hate u), i felt such a different way with you than anyone else.
Our first kiss
the first time i kissed you. it was genuinely so fucking surreal. ive never longed to feel someones lips as i have with you. i genuinely couldnt wait any longer i wanted to kiss you so bad and i was always so scared and thats why i had to be drunk to do it. I was so scared because someone as pretty as you is unimaginable.
The first night together
i deadass cant tell you how much that night meant to me. just how close i felt holding you, looking at you and just admiring how fucking beautiful you are and the fact that your mine. I already knew i loved you before but damn, that made me so fucking sure. Ive never been so intimate with anyone in my life and i never thought i could ever be that close to anyone to the extent where i can talk about how perfect they are for hours.
New Years
checking off going hundreds of km's just to see a girl was not something i had expected that year. When i was shitfaced and tweaking all i could think about is you and how much i love you. Nothing was on my mind but just seeing you and talking to you and it really fucking killed me that you couldn't be my new years kiss but regardless seeing u in that pretty black dress gave me the best start of the year i could ask for.
prom
ONCE i cheat on you with a teenage girl when im 50 i am making sure she doesn't manage the prom we go to. Nah im joking as much as it made you stressful and as much as i had to deal with u crashing out i loved prom so much and i loved dancing with you so much. You looked so fucking good in your dress i genuinely was going to tweak out that i couldn't kiss you (till u did), but dancing with you was so fucking cute you couldnt even look me in the eyes it was adorable. And you couldnt even dance with me without heels cause you were so short haha
Steak date
god i cant even remember the place we went to get that steak for you but it was genuinely such a fucking fun day. watching you crash out over not getting the steak the same way you like it was really cute and just the whole place was so fucking beautiful and oh my fuck you looked so fucking good in that outfit it was crazy. I love going on cute dates with you and cant wait to keep on doing them.
Boards
Even though we both were so fucking stressed about boards being able to meet you everyday and study with you was so fucking amazing. Maybe not the smartest decision going an hour away everyday but so fucking worth it. We genuinely locked in so hard together and the reward after made it sooooo worth it i genuinely had so much fun locking in which is something i never thought would happen. I love studying with you.
Goa
Im sorry. I want to talk about how much fun we had but its completely unfair if i dont start this by saying im sorry. im sorry for everything i did and im sorry that i messed up our trip. But regardless i know both of us had alot of fun both with our friends and together, everything from playing in the beach to building sandcastles when tanmay and ishani were tweaking to clubbing was all just so fucking amazing with you, it sucks we didnt get to spend that much time together but i still loved that trip soo much only because you were in it.
Summer
Meeting almost everyday, spending hours together, countless nights together. Countless dates, countless flowers, countless laughs and countless orgasms. I loved summer so much only and solely because of you, it wouldnt even be 1% as good as it was if not because of you. I cant imagine spending my last summer with anyone else.
My birthday (you leaving)
Im sorry. I have nothing to say but im sorry and i will forever be sorry no mattert what. theres no excuse and im not making any either. Im so fucking sorry i cant imagine myself doing something like that to anyone especially not you knowing how much you mean to me and how important you are.
LDR
I love long distance. Damn even just typing that sounds sooooo fucking crazy. But i love everything about you and fuck distance fuck people fuck anyone or anything that will try and break us because i couldnt imagine my life without you regardless of how far, the time zones, the schedules, nothing will change how much i want to be with you and how much you mean to me. Weve been making it work and im so proud of us for growing so much as people and we both have learned to handle problems in a much better way and its just so amazing.